You’re Not Behind -You’re Just Human

Pardon my language: but holy sh*t, life does not let up. Ever.

Since hitting adulthood, I’ve found myself dreading the whole “New Year, New Me” narrative. I absolutely understand why people love it. Fresh starts and making resolutions for the new year sound hopeful. But the past couple of years, I just can't relate. I’m in my late 20s, struggling to find a big-girl job after earning my bachelor’s degree. I'm a fiancée to an incredible human in their first year of law school, a cat mom, and a climber.

So mostly, I’m just trying to keep moving forward and stay afloat. 

For me, social media doesn’t offer that "escape" anymore. It feels more like a facade of unrealistic, unrelatable expectations. Seeing post after post about how amazing everyone’s year is off to feels overwhelming, especially when we’re only three weeks in! Yet somehow there’s already a pressure to decide whether this year is a success or a failure. Even in spaces of social media that are supposed to give that familiar comfort feel, just don’t anymore. I’m truly happy for those who are able to climb full-time, work remote jobs, and travel to some incredible climbing spots whenever they want to. But unfortunately, that just isn’t my life right now. Hopefully someday, but not now.

Okay, so this post isn’t meant to come across as overly negative or cynical. That isn’t the goal of this blog. What I want instead is relatability. Because so often, feeling a certain way can be incredibly lonely when you don’t know if anyone else is going through it too. It can feel isolating and suffocating at times.

But you’re not alone.

I’ve missed climbing trips because of work or school. I’ve stayed home because shifts couldn’t be covered or responsibilities couldn’t be ignored. And I think it’s important to say this: that’s okay.

FOMO is okay. Missing trips is okay. Choosing stability, responsibilities, or rest is okay.

This is why this space exists: a space to be related, grounded, and real. A place where you don’t have to pretend you’re ahead, motivated, or constantly improving. This page exists to be honest. I won’t sugarcoat things for likes or views and pretend life is easier than it is. I’ll always tell the truth because right now, it feels like truth is something a lot of us are craving.

It’s okay to start late.

It’s okay to feel behind.

It’s okay to say, “I’ll start next week.” And not.

What matters is that you start when you’re ready, but you keep pushing on and never give up. 

And if you’re reading this and feeling overwhelmed, tired, or unsure about what the next move is, you’re not alone. I feel all of this,

too. But we got this!

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For me, starting this week didn’t look big or impressive. It looked like a 15-minute ab workout and a 15-minute full-body pilates workout in my living room on my old yoga mat. Truthfully, I haven’t really felt like going to the gym, and honestly, I don’t even feel like leaving my apartment. But those small workouts made me feel like I was doing something. Like I was showing up for myself in a way that felt manageable.

And right now, that’s enough.